xoMariaLA

Obviously, I can’t sleep right now. My mind is going on and on, running through life and it can’t seems to stop. I feel a bit of sadness and reading this is helping my tears from falling down even more. I don’t like it when my heart feels like this but I’ve had this tendency from a very young age. I cry for no reason sometimes. Is that weird? I don’t know if it’s my subconscious releasing my unknown emotions, stress and what not but I use to cry once a week. It was a routine. Out of no where, I had the urge to cry. Now, for the past 2 years, my heart has build a shield of steel. It doesn’t happen often but when it does, the tears definitely fall. Anyway, one day, I woke up to this cute little note from my boyfriend. It felt good to know that at 3 a.m., he took the time to write to ME & no one else this sweet note. So now, whenever I feel like crying or am crying, I go through little notes like these to remind me that I’m NOT alone. That I have someone right on this earth, behind me, ready to catch me because HE loves me. What can I say? I have fallen deeply in love with this man and no one will ever change that. He is my rock. Without him, my life would be incomplete. We’ve been through so much that he’s become my best friend. I love him to death. If it were up to me, I would have him with me 24/7 starting the moment I realized that I was IN LOVE with him. They say you never forget your first love, well let me tell you…If he doesn’t end up with me in the long run, he has forever left his fingerprints on my heart   ♥

XOXO, MariaLA